2 more weeks to go before I say good bye to NUS and bus 95!

Just submitted the first report draft. Now, the most worrying thing in my mind now is the grade. Sigh...Wanted to ask him on how "he" graded me regarding my progress. Looking at his stress face, 可是我开不了口. Simply because I do not wish to hear the bad comments out from his mouth.

Things seems not to be within control.

Putting aside the bad experiences, our dear angerline finally turn 21 last last sunday. Gir, Hl, Hy, Hx and myself celebrated her 21st birthday at clementi partyword from 7nov night to 8 nov morning. Before the actual day, the 5 of us have planned to play prank on her. Being the spokeperson/ middleman, I have to tell her that it will be a lonely birthday celebration with just me and her. However, on the very day things did not go the way that it should be, quite a lot of unexpectancy happening but think was quite a success though. 勉强可以过关. Lotsa of laughters and stuns..haha..

Sadly, I maybe jobless soon. Saturday screening will be coming to an end. Dayspring gonna shift their weekend screening over to their new outlet at paragon and no longer doing health screening at midlink. Latest news from laiping is that they might recruit us to work over at paragon but I've gt a feeling quite low possibility. Sigh.. no more income....!! >.<

Monday blues. Emotionally down ever since the first day of internship. It has been the second month and I have yet started my experiment. Is it because I am inefficient?

Whenever went over to discuss with you about my ideas and findings, always end up telling me to”think and read more”. Hello Sir, I really have ENOUGH of reading! (I didn’t meant that I have read the whole encyclopedia but I am sure I have grab hold the basics) I really need a grant from you to start working and find out what did I left out in order to read more. Yes you are cautious, you do not wish to waste resources, especially money! But will it be better to at least tell me what your plan is?

Yes you did introduce some equipment that you usually used. But none is related to our project interest! Seriously, I think that you are a master of none! That day presented my findings to you; you sat there like noob as if I am talking alien language!

I understand you are busy with your other projects and the high EQ me don’t wish to waste your precious time. You know how much courage I need whenever I come to see you?

The only times that you will approach me is to help you download papers, which is totally no relation to my project. I always download them immediately for you, regardless how many articles you requested despite knowing there is restriction to the number of articles I can download from the school database.

Chosen a one man project, no one here had did something related and supervise by a "busy" man. All because I AM SUAY!! And I shouldn’t grumble. I really feel so neglected and out.  Sitting alone in a dusty, empty and eerie room, no one to talk to, no one I can seek help from, is just like I am depart from the outside world. Sound pathetic right. Apparently, my seniors will come down to do their FYP project. As you know is “occasionally”. Most of the time is I am left in the room. Whenever I see my senior working on their experiment, I really wish if I were them.

Time is really tight and limiting. Next week, the tutor is coming and I have nothing I can present to him. On top of that second problem evolved- Time coordination! I really don’t know how to synchronize their timing! One say he has a important presentation in the afternoon, need time to prepare in the morning the other say he can only meet up on that day! I really am having a bad headache now! Who I can complain to? Can anyone understand how I feel right now?!

I really don’t wish to flunk my cGPA just because of some annoying people! I don’t wish to put all my year 1 effort and hard work down to drain. How how how?

Feeling distressed and terrified! ARGH!